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Saturday, January 27, 2007

went back to NCC HQ supposedly for west clt de meetin. but only a handful of 51st clts & a big grp of 52nd clts attended the meetin. was a gd meetin though i shld say. have a chance to see & get to know some of them. will be workin with them very soon for the upcomin campfeast 1 in feb. hope it will be a nice one bei.

after that went to jalan kayu to eat prata with syamil, woei luen, clement, aisyah, shankra, sgt iskandar & lt rizal. the prata there is ok la. got to know from lt rizal that ncc uniform is gonna undergo changes as well. we are gonna put the singapore tag & change our name tag too. think its gonna start with the batch of sec1s that will be comin in. which is very soon bei. den he was tellin us clt ranks are also gonna change soon. no more clt. heard from him will have wat cadet 2lt, cadet lt, cadet captain etc. not finalised yet la. still designin. kinda look forward to it ba.

YEAH~~ spore beat msia in the asean championship. it was telecast live on channel 5. wanted to go to national stadium to watch de. but in the end no ppl to pei me go. but doesnt matter. its a very tense match la. damn excitin. the match ended 1-1 after full time & xtra time. lionel lewis actually blundered & let in a goal la. so freak. but lucky he saved the penalty shot. so shiok!!! was feelin so high after watchin the match. SPORE ROX~~ haha.

haix. exam comin soon. camp feast also comin soon. obviously lookin forward to campfeast more la. soon le. in one week time. hope it will be an enjoyable camp especially with the new 52nd clts.

haix.

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Friday, January 19, 2007

TIME TO REVIVE MY BLOG~~~

my blog has been dead for way too long le. shld be time to post my first entry for year 2007 le bei. though its very late le. but better late than nvr...hehe.

been kinda obsessed with takin pics of clouds recently. dont know y also. probably due to all the things troublin me recently bei. lookin at the clouds give me all the comfort that i needed even though its jus for a moment. a short moment is all i need. a short moment of peacefulness without any worries. i love clouds ever since i was a kid. still rmb the times when i loved to draw clouds. it seems so long ago...

took from outside classroom

nice...

went up to the 7th floor to have a clearer view

clouds before storm

clouds at fuhua...

nth is goin well for me recently bei. whether its ncc or studies. it jus sux. i seem to be losin myself soon. i dont seem to recognise myself anymore. im losin my confidence. im losin evrything.

times have changed. cadets are no longer the same as wat we were in the past. nowdays they talked back to clts, attitude us & give all sorts of nonsense that will not be expected of us in the past. isit times have changed or isit that i didnt do my job to discipline them? i dont know....

i have been thinkin hard whether agreein to help nan hua is a mistake or not. i looked forward to the challenge there initially. the challenge to bring a unit up. but after goin there, it seems a bigger challenge than i have expected. first their clt have taught the cadets lots of wrong stuff which they dont know is wrong. its hard to correct them as it seems that they had been psychoed. nxt their teachers & the sch is not that supportive of the ncc unit. theres so many restrictions here & there.

i have been thinkin long & hard. isit a mistake in the first place? will syamil, woei leun & me be able to make a difference to nan hua. im startin to doubt my own ability as a clt, as a leader. am i even fit to be one? my bro had said before that i dont deserve my rank. do i have the capability to help to lift their unit up? im beginnin to see my own limits at nan hua. do i have the same capability as sclt wee hock, sclt steven ho & sclt chee kaur that helps to build fuhua ncc from scratch? all the qn marks have been appearin in my mind. its givin me slpless nites.

with my fuhua cadets

like wat wl has said...

BEING A CLT IS TOUGH. BEING A SCLT IS EVEN TOUGHER.

am i fit to wear the sclt rank. i really doubt so...

BEING A LEADER IS TOUGH. BEING A LEADER THAT MAKES A DIFFERENCE IN OTHERS LIFE IS EVEN TOUGHER.

misses.

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